Father, Partner, Architect, Music enthousiast, Avid reader, Idiot
Still here
People have commented that it has been a long since I wrote. That is correct :). Life slowly moves on. Pictures of Gerard are in the living room, the website is always there and when people come around we usually stand still for a moment thinking about what has happened.
Because of this a new entry emerges.
Last week my second son which whom I lost contact contacted me because he was reading this website. He just wanted to let me know that his feelings were the same as mine about the loss of Gerard. We started talking and we did not stop. (as a matter of fact we are talking as we speak). So this is good and I am very happy with it
This weekend two close friends were over. We had not talked in a few months all of us being too busy with life to visit. So last weekend was a major gettogether and talk. A large bottle of whiskey on the table, good food (Hans the male part and me both really like to cook and we are not too bad at it) and then we talked till 5 in the morning. I think we stopped when the whiskey was gone. They have a son and daughter aged 18 and 15 so they were very careful at first not to talk about them as Gerard was in that age group. When we talked about that it was clear for me that talking about young people is no problem whatsoever. Talking about Gerard especially to people that know me so well as they do is still very difficult. There is no use holding up appearances. They know and see what I really feel. So I never hold back when talking to them. I can cry without them feeling embarrassed
If you have a friend (or friends) that are that close to you, not only treasure them, but make sure you never hold back. Make sure they never hold back. That way you always have people to support and you have people that support you.